IT WAS MY THIRD PREGNANCY, BUT I HAD YET TO EXPERIENCE A FULL TERM, NO COMPLICATIONS, CHILDBIRTH, AND WHILE THIS PREGNANCY WAS NO LESS COMPLICATED I REACHED THE SAFE POINT THAT I WAS SO CLOSE TO EXPERIENCING A FULL TERM, NO COMPLICATIONS CHILD-BIRTH MY HAPPY WAS BURSTING.
I SPENT COUNTLESS HOURS THAT TURNED INTO DAYS THAT TURNED INTO WEEKS FLAT ON MY BACK… SEVENTEEN TOTAL WEEKS ON DOCTOR ORDERED BED REST, GETTING SHOT UP WITH PROGESTERONE, FOLLOWING EVERY DOCTOR ORDER TO A T. I READ AND RESEARCHED. I WAITED. IT WAS AN INTENSE EXPERIENCE; I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO STILL, LIVING IN THE MOMENT LIKE THAT THAN AT ANY OTHER TIME IN MY LIFE.
HAVING EXPERIENCED, AS DOCTORS CALLED IT, FETAL DEMISE… THE DEATH OF MY FIRST DAUGHTER, AND A PREMATURE BIRTH AT 23 WEEKS GESTATION WITH MY SECOND DAUGHTER, THE DOCTORS COULD HAVE TOLD ME TO STAND ON MY HEAD WHILE RUBBING MY TUMMY AND I WOULD HAVE SAID… TEACH ME HOW.
THE BED REST BARELY SEEMED TO AFFECT ME; I WAS SO OVER THE TOP, LIKE NEVER IN MY LIFE, HIGHLY MOTIVATED TO DO WHATEVER POSSIBLE BECAUSE I WANTED MORE THAN ANYTHING TO FEEL A FULL TERM, HOLD MY HEALTHY BABY IN MY ARMS CHILD-BIRTH.
MY WILLINGNESS TO TRY SOMETHING, ANYTHING THAT MIGHT HELP ME AND MY UNBORN CHILD REACH A FULL TERM BIRTH OPENED UP THE POSSIBILITY FOR WHAT SOUNDED INCREDIBLY CRUNCHY WEIRD… HYPNOBIRTHING.
HYPNOBIRTHING; IT EVEN SOUNDS PECULIAR! AH, LIFE HAS THESE RAIN NOTHING BUT SHIT MOMENTS, MAKE YOU CURL UP IN A BALL CRY MOMENTS, YET SO FULL OF MIRACLE MOMENTS, MAKE YOU SCREAM, JUMP UP AND DOWN JOY MOMENTS… BEAUTIFUL, CRAZY HARD LIFE.
SO, I MET THIS GIRL, SHE WAS A NURSE WHO WAS THE WIFE OF THE SON OF A CUSTOMER WHO DID BUSINESS WITH THE SAILOR AND BOOM, QUITE THE MIRACULOUS NO WAY YOU CANNOT MEET THIS PERSON MOMENT BECAUSE YOU ARE GOING TO SIT, AND TALK, AND HEAR ABOUT THIS PERSONS EXPERIENCES. I LISTENED, WHILE SHE SHARED HER HYPNOBIRTHING EXPERIENCE. THE STUDENT WAS READY; THE TEACHER APPEARED.
WHATEVER, THE MOON AND STARS AND THE WORLD AND EVERYTHING ELSE SEEMED SO PERFECTLY ALIGNED. YOU KNOW WITH CERTAINTY THAT YOU WANT, DESERVE TO HAVE SOMETHING WONDERFULLY BEAUTIFUL HAPPEN AND YOU FEEL ITS GOODNESS, THE ANTICIPATION AND EXCITEMENT… IT’S A BIG ‘OLE BALL OF HOPE, HOPE, HOPE.
EVEN THOUGH YOU THINK YOU ARE THE TYPE OF PERSON TO SAY, “JACK ME UP WITH DRUGS, AND GET THIS BABY OUT OF ME” BECAUSE YOU ARE READY TO MEET THIS BABY KIND OF PERSON AND THEN ONE DAY YOU FIND YOURSELF GOING THROUGH A HYPNOBIRTHING EXPERIENCE.
WHOA. IT HAPPENED, AND I LISTENED TO MY BODY AND GOT TO EXPERIENCE SOMETHING SO NATURAL, PAIN-FREE, EUPHORIC, BEAUTIFUL, INCREDIBLE. LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL, CRAZY HARD, AND MIRACLES HAPPEN.
MY SWEET BABY GIRL BORN AT 40 WEEKS, PLUS 2 DAYS GESTATION BLESSED ME WITH HER SUPER FABULOUS AWESOME SELF, AND MY HEART GREW BIGGER.
SHE ROCKS MY WORLD WITH HER BEAUTY, AND SWEETNESS, AND KINDNESS, AND SILLY FUNNY SELF. I AM TO THE MOON AND BACK GRATEFUL THAT SHE IS MY DAUGHTER, AND THAT I GET TO BE HER MOM, AND ON THIS DAY WE GET TO CELEBRATE HER AND US AND OUR FAMILY.
HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!